Of ' + ' and ' - '

I need a break.

I felt that for the past couple of years, my life has been a roller-coaster ride. Too many ups and downs and honestly it's getting scary.

I'm like trying to stay afloat because it's an obligation for me to stay alive. I oftentimes forgot the real purpose why I am here. It seems that the bright rays of the morning sun has lost it's shine on me. There is no joy of waking up in the morning anymore. It has always been a 'been there-done that' kind of day. Why do I feel this way? depression? Uhmm, maybe, but I do not want to continually make that as an excuse. It aint' right.

When good thing happens, expect something bad will follow. Why is the world like this? I just can't figure it out. I just can't put everything in order. I just can't continue to be happy. It's like having this ' + ' and ' - ' signs tattoed on my forehead.

If the ' + ' appears ' - ' will get even later.

positive is continually chase by negative.

OMG, when will this stop?