An Interview with Myself

Place of Interview: Inside my office. A/C (air-con) set to 20C for that freezing atmosphere.

Time of Interview: 10:30AM (UAE Time) / (2:30PM in the Philippines)

Objective of Interview: Just to let you know a bit of who I am



Alter-ego: So, your full name is Arthur Jan Agustin, but friends call you by your nickname, Am I right? Errr.... by the way Sir, what is that 'famous' nickname of yours?



ME: First of all, please don't call me Sir and my nickname isn't famous, it's just unique. My nickname is "Bimbo", Yeah I know, don't mention it. I know if you look at the dictionary, the meaning of it is not good. Okay?



Alter-ego: Sure, Bimbo. Rest assured that the meaning of your nickname will not be posted in this interview. Hehehe. Anyways, Let us proceed. Hmmm.... Bimbo, Please tell me who you really are? Just a few description of yourself.



ME: Well, I'm someone who don't speak much, I am always on silent mode especially when I'm not comfortable with people I am with but I am very "kulit" to my close buddies, I love to make them laugh and play practical jokes on them. I have a very good sense of humor. That's my personality. There is always an up and a down. Just like a coin, it always has 2 sides. I am a born critic, I have this rebellious juices running in my veins. I love to side with the underdogs. Im not an "aktivista" but I'm sure I could have been if I went to U.P. for college.

I'm unpredictable, my mood swing is terrible. I'll never say that I am a role model. My family always thought that I am, but hey, I'll say it again, I am not a role model. I am not what they think I am. I'm aint saying that I am bad, a pain in the ass, a trouble maker. It's not like that. Let's put it this way, a mixture of both good and bad. Sounds clear? Nobody's perfect you gotta know that. Those who loves to pretend should come out of their shell and face reality. This is real life, this is not tele-novela.

The only thing that I really hate about me is depriving myself of what they say "the greatest love of all". Do you know what is that?

Alter-ego: ???

ME: Was it to love yourself?

Alter-ego: ??? (looks confused)

ME: Okay, I am selfless. What I mean is, I always love to sacrifice for the people I love even if it will make my life difficult. Now I just realized that, I need to give some love for myself. It's not always them, you know what I mean?. I should now reserve a piece of love for myself. I know I have a personality problem and I have to make remedies before it's too late.

Alter-ego: From what I believe, you hate pretenders.

ME: Yeah, I do? I really do!

Alter-ego: You do? but you are also a pretender. You said you always sacrifice for your love ones. It means that even if you're broke, even if it's the last penny in your pocket, even if it's the last food left to satisfy your hunger. You hold back and give it to them. I think that is also pretending. You are always pretending that the situation is fine. That you are someone else. Am I right?

ME: Yes, you are absolutely right! That's why I also hate myself BUT it's the smile on their faces that satisfies me. That at the end of the day, you can sit back and think about them and tell yourself that, yeah, I was able to help them. It's a damn 'feel good moment'.

Alter-ego: Was it the need of helping them, make them happy, or was it because of your pride that you always do that?

ME: Whoaa! That was a stunning question. Honestly, I don't know the answer. I really don't know. Period. Maybe I grew up that way. I remember when I was I kid, somebody my brother for a fistfight. Again, instead of him fighting, I took the oppurtunity and I was badly beaten. Stupid me.

Alter-ego: You should seek some advice.

ME: If it's because of my pride or whatsoever. I just don't know the answer.

Alter-ego: Now that you are away from home. What life's lesson have you learned.

ME: It thought me a lot of things dude. I don't have to enumarate them all.

Alter-ego: Okay, finally, what can you say to people out there who are probably reading this at the moment?

ME: I have not lost my sanity. I always express myself well this way. I know there are a lot of people just like me out there.

Welcome to my world!