I'm Baaaaaaaaaaack!

No, no, no. I did not fly south to hibernate. I just went on a short hiatus coz' I was a bit busy since my last post.

Well, it's nice to be back!

No need for a celebration now. I need to put into writing A.S.A.P. what's temporarily stored on my mind right now or face the risk of losing it forever. You know, we humans tend to forget things easily.

For the past 2 weeks, a lot of things happened and I really feel the need to unload it all here. That is the reason why I really need to buy myself a laptop so that anywhere and anytime, I can write the stuffs that I want. I hope God is listening...

The Path of Life

It took a while for me to ask if I made the right decision to work miles away from home. You know, you can really never avoid reminiscing the past. Each and everyone of us does some serious soul-searching once in a while. I believe that everything that happens in our life, may it be good or bad always has a reason and it's up to us how to deal with it.

I believe in destiny, I believe that before we are born, the path that we are about to take is already made. "Maktub"(it is written) as what the Arabs say. The only question is, if we are going to take that path or make a trail of our own.

Sometimes instead of following the path that the heavens made for us, we always try to re-route or make a trail of our own without thinking what could be up ahead. Could it be a dead end? A trap? Or a Paradise? No one knows. In the end, we always end up trying to get ourself back to the right path, only to discover that the trail we made while making a route-change is gone! It was already covered with tall grasses and dirt.No visible footmarks, nothing. That's the time we realized that we are already lost! The trail back to the path of your life is gone.

Life is a struggle, an endless battle where only the strong survives. I always tell myself to get up and fight every time I fall but just like every human being on this planet, we sometimes feel tired and hopeless. All I can say is life is a gift from above, may we have lost the path but everytime we look up, the stars at night can guide us or the birds during the day can show us the way. One good lesson I learned after too many knock-downs from life's experiences is how to be sensitive to signs or warnings. Before I went to this oil-rich country, I neglected the little voice who told me not to go. The first few months was a struggle, I spent huge amount to extend my visa. It was almost a disaster. Later I realized, that little voice stopped me because I was coming over at the wrong time. It was actually the time of the year when employers don't hire employees.

I maybe taking the right path, but I travelled when the road is not in good condition. A case of right place at the wrong time? Maybe yes, maybe no. It is also possible that I took the wrong path and got lost. The good thing is, a person can never be lost forever unless he finds way to find the right path.

Life is a mystery. Making a decision is part of life. Following the path of your life is a choice. Getting lost is a learning experience. To sum it all up, Life is one hell of a journey.

Happy Hour

It's 3:45 pm UAE time. I just went down to get myself a coffee to drink. I got a little excited to get my first sip that I forgot how hoooooooooooooooooooooooooot the damn coffee was. No regrets, it's good to know that one of the 5 senses I have is still absolutely working fine.

I'm still drinking coffee while the people back home (Philippines) are already eating their dinner. Whew!

I'm a bit lucky that my boss is not here. (Thank heavens!) I again had the time to update my blog! Yipeeeeeeeeeee! I hope everyday is going to be like this.

Days from now, I'm gonna post several parts of the article/story I wrote about U.A.E., I assure you, you will be entertained, if not, irritated ;)

I and the little devil named depression

Damn, I really feel tired today. I'm sure it's either because of my scoliosis or because of my chronic depression.

Depression??

Yup, I have chronic depression. I believed It started 6 or 7 years ago but I did not took it seriously and at the same time, I really don't know that I was suffering from depression already. I thought I only have this so-called personalty problem. Duh!

According to Depression-Help-Center.Com, When depression lasts longer, and the depressive symptoms go away for a short time only to return again, it is termed chronic depression. When fewer than five symptoms listed on a standard depression quiz are present for at least two weeks, the mood disorder is considered chronic / minor depression.

Some of the reasons that can be linked with my depression are:

* My genes, yup, it's hereditary

* Tragedies or events I experienced that are not worth remembering

* Frustrations, frustrations, frustrations...................................................

* and more frustrations

For everbody's info, some of the signs and symptoms of depression are:

Depressed mood
Feeling hopeless, sad, discouraged, or empty.

Loss of interest or pleasure
Inability to experience pleasure. Nothing seems to interest you anymore, including former hobbies, social activities, and sex. Yup that includes sex. LOL!

Appetite or weight changes
Significant weight loss or weight gain—a change of more than 5% of body weight in a month.

Sleep changes
Insomnia or oversleeping (also known as hypersomnia).

Psychomotor agitation or retardation
“Keyed up,” unable to sit still, anxious, restless or sluggish, slow speech and body movements, lack of responsiveness.

Fatigue or loss of energy
Physically drained. Even small tasks are exhausting. Can't do things as quickly as you used to.

Self-loathing
Strong feelings of worthlessness or guilt. Harsh criticism of perceived faults and mistakes.

Concentration problems
Inability to focus. Difficulty making decisions. Can’t “think straight.” Memory problems.

Irritability
Grouchy, easily annoyed, and frustrated by little things. Angry outbursts.

Aches and pains
Depression can cause or exacerbate many physical symptoms, including headaches, backaches, diarrhea or constipation, abdominal pain, and aching joints.

Years ago, I even got addicted with sleeping pills. Damn, it was not good. When I felt the impact of it's side effect, I stopped. See how stupid I am?

You see, It was only now that I took some actions and took depression seriously. Main reason is: It's giving me a hard time to enjoy life.. To cope up with things... To cope up with things..... To cope up with things.

It wrecked havoc before and I just let it ruined me. I took about 10 or more depression screenings from various websites and honestly, I failed in all screenings. What I mean is, I really need to seek the help of a mental institute professional... Sigh!

There are many different treatment options for depression. The most common approach involves some type of psychotherapy, antidepressant medication, or a combination of the two.

I'll take any of those treatment any day. That's how serious I am of throwing away and kicking the little devil's shiny a**!. If you're also having depression chronic or clinical, let us seek help.....before it's too late.